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 He is a man, however, I was a selfish man, perhaps, in this world, still not our place for such people.
, However, a place which can accommodate the total of the two ordinary man.
--- of: Connan
the One Six Floating Life
husband is a pig, fat, less than a year of work twenty kilograms and turbid water are flesh. college severe deformation of the tall thin figure, a small pot came out.
forcing him to lose weight, he would not have always said a little fat men awesome. I said: operations such as Ruoliu Fufeng, nine curved body of a walk, Enchanting, Spring in your body as the kite can be placed tied rope. Now, a walking body quivering flesh, turning over every night for a bed to creak sound. you do not lose weight, big belly every day, some day you will Zhangde like a balloon, and then drift away. > I want to break up threatening him, and he ha ha hum while watching the football side, said: I eat slowly, and often did not finish my bowl, he has finished his rations. every time this time, he sat at the table, struck the side of stared at my job to eat, do not speak. which led me not eat, filled with guilt, had to set aside half of his meal, he says how do you eat fast side, finished and then stared at me, and had to be allocated to his half.
a weeks after the acceptance of results, I basically did not change, his long jin.
by the stimulation, I decided to eat two meals a day will only be allowed him, not his dinner were (he was in the company cafeteria to eat lunch), her husband see I hard a heart, do not see me sitting at the table next to eat. sitting in the living room broken gong with his singing voice desolately Can Can: stuck in the throat.
middle of the night woke up, her husband is not around, I heard a movement out of the living room and saw her husband squatted on the refrigerator, the refrigerator light snip snip to eating apples, one hand still holding tomatoes, are his favorite fruit less. see me out, he embarrassed smile, said: cook him a bowl, and watched him eat hungrily.
weight loss program had to be terminated, according to her husband as saying that he was still hungry and not development.
smooth and slick in the company her husband, who says that people see the words , hell that stuff. home to relax the whole person, blankly, into the sofa in a withered, dull eyes, wander off. I often associate the opportunity to pick bully him.
One day, he sitting on the sofa as usual, I took out a deck of cards, said: . is the person licensing, and then a large number of points than anyone else. Great, I can hit you face. each made two, this is mine. I'm back to the license, then hair, the flat spot. I said: br> interest in her husband up and asked: can play me like this. play later. I went to the cook. yawn, but I just dig he took Combs into his mouth, drowsiness totally disappeared suddenly.
play this game I never get tired of a hundred, no matter when and where, as long as her husband yawning, I took a side anything to his mouth.
husband complained that with me made him stupid. I smiled to ignore him, we tried the kind of magazine that exquisite life, talk about poetry, chat French New Wave film, unfortunately her husband co-operate, he would rather watch football. I tried several times the body is wrong, and down-hearted abandon.
would take advantage of buying discount supermarket, grab still elated, saying: , it can save the two five. always with bloodshot.
pick only the most popular movie action movie. the opera, the heroine in the stage mouth open br> Chaju the way, l do not smell her husband used to say how a man called r, then shook his socks that smell l, sparse muscle active, Douyi Dou, full of energy r (write only to find evil ~ ~ m )
righteously wrinkled his nose on the magazine, said: I'm popular!
between people once talked about fate, and I said: I was born in Inner Mongolia, Liaoning long, separated by thousands of miles. China has 1.3 billion people, and we even entered the same university, live in the same dormitory. do the math, the odds were prohibitively small, in case where a little mistake, I to miss you out. meet. or everything is just by chance.
husband pushing my head, laugh I love cranky. himself thought, and then do not care to say: He better than you. The feelings of that.
but also emotional, when her husband, and Halley's comet appeared about the probability.
the end of last semester freshman year, both with each other to attract the kind of feeling is unmistakable, but reserved forward, in fear of, not taken the step forward. occasional intersection of an eye, heart rough, his face but still nothing had happened.
winter break, he went home I stayed.
received several phone calls, voice is faint, two people holding the microphone in a daze, I do not know what to say, can not bear to put down.
winter over, I went to pick him up at midnight, no buses, no Pakistan, reluctant to take a taxi, then walk for two hours , nearly thirty miles to the train station.
saw him from the station came up to me, I suddenly felt very shy, smiled and did not speak. fear he saw his face flush, has been head twisted forty-five degrees, give him a back of the head.
husband also Samsam, and barely said a few words, stutter, speech lied. taxi back to school, in the dark, he suddenly held out his hand on my head ask a bit and whispered said: are worth.
I read a very complicated, romance reasoning, documentary fantasy, slash erotic, refuses. even the old twenties and thirties of last century social novel with relish can also be seen from the specifically to see garbage Gu, Qiong Yao is Jingxiebumin on.
I do not like, consider themselves very tolerant, but Qiong Yao's novels is not read, so her story is not too worldly, naive appalling. But There is a saying, or in my heart again, numb.
met until after my husband understand that there is indeed such a state of mind was smashed Qiong Yao wrote.
nothing more than be summed up in two words: Brief Encounter.
June , and her husband went to his hometown mm Tianshui to the identity of the students.
the train, then the city has a both familiar and strange intimacy. blue sky, land, people, buildings, seems to be contaminated with her husband atmosphere. because one person fell in love with a city.
heart, but also kind of sense of jealousy. our two-year-old met the day before is blank, he did not know this world there is a me.
he laughter, tears, success, failure, by others to witness, without my copy, so I am jealous.
If you could meet earlier that nice!
we talked about death.
Now days, young and strong, every jump, can not wait to experience new people and new things. death is still too distant.
occasionally think of the scene five years later, two white-haired old man mutual support each other, but also full of expectations. old cute, but can be a lovely elderly.
For me, the greatest threat of death or: die, such as lights out, asleep, I have not seen enough her husband does. I am not afraid, but I scared to death and then can not love him like this.
So I said to her husband: on clean clothes, lying in bed holding hands, I say go die l r, we die together. 【three】
1999, sitting on the train south, for the first time away from home and very excited. University in my heart is distant and mysterious, like a sanctuary.
a few days after admission free, use this time traveled to every corner of the school. only at noon and in the evening to stay in the hostel. At the time I closed and withdrawn from, do not know how to deal with strangers, he never Bengzhuo face.
vaguely heard her husband is a separate class, not interested to get to the bottom, until two weeks after that: the original he was second class, because the school's negligence placed in a dorm.
remember my husband first words are surface.
the third day after admission, the telecommunications company to send someone to install the phone, 201, and one hundred and sixty, twenty per share, happened to me not, my husband would be paid for me.
this thing, this sentence is in fact no meaning. If it were not together today, and her husband will never remember. but separated for so long look back, but added impressive.
her husband, said: I want to speak to a debt that is really real. mind other people's looks, met, and my heart have the impression about the next time I saw how people will find this is not the same, and they want to.
had complained to the students: and last not the same, the one magic spells. a little long, a lot of acne and pitted with holes, played like a shotgun. small eyes, while double-side single, the nose is not high not low, the mouth of the large jaws.
can only say ugly, my husband commented on their own.
day and night relative, is not tired of twenty-four hours together. are really only , eight hours sleep, and then subtracting a number of assorted real time relative to less than four hours, very short.
chatting, watching TV, shopping, and soon gone, mind or happiness have to do nothing. < br> television broadcast commercials, and I looked at her husband's face, side head, sighing, said: > My husband glared at me.
thousand hills I walk alone like no one both hands, her husband is a report to the school together with his brother's.
three-year-old, fat face, looks a bit between her husband's shadow. was not expected her husband would be her husband and took him as a brother, just like the students to dispose of the family, no collusion, distraught endless.
once was and her husband talk, her husband suddenly looked at me I asked laughing. He said: people are not, he is a person, naive, headstrong, childish, lawlessness, seven-year-old grow up. r extreme lack of her husband's artistic. English Hui fail, he said: , the fourth time I go into battle impersonation. wind is tight, was arrested a present. I care about is not an accomplice, her husband was probation, review, withdraw the application were written by my ghost.
relatively strict view of Changsha, We move on to Tianshui. He has a brother and sister did not know he had four, but the parents do not know.
on the train, I asked: I told mom you're working pressure, back a few days. you say this was a play the students. relationship is still secret, so is life and life split a pair of lovers, her husband live in their parents house, I live there, his brother.
send text messages to her husband, that I miss you. to hear his brother on the phone to her husband's brother in law: ; you come home tomorrow, not to mention four things. unfamiliar environment, without her husband's night, very tough. half past ten to fall asleep, suddenly woke up one o'clock, and then eyes open until dawn.
finished four out of the old saw just chatted with a man to kill me first back.
there was heard from her husband's brother, and her husband are high school classmates say. The best laugh is that two people are claiming that they have passed each other four, this accident met in the examination room, the situation of embarrassment can imagine.
true more dramatic than fiction.
a little better, but her husband can be said that I test, accompany him.
but I did not think that, in addition to her husband's brother and sister, he others claimed that they had had four.
think also forget, decided not to expose, let him keep it a little vanity.
Fu Sheng Liu Ji 【】
yesterday her husband have four dinner, I waited for him while watching TV, and some difficulties to the couch with eyes closed to rest. heard someone open the door, sat down beside her husband gently asked me to come.
I purposely do not agree, her husband whispered to say: : br> But the favorite was his frustration with a little blame to me and say it is always a little nasal, self-assured.
went to Tianshui was discovered that people there are saying, be regarded as local features. did not come early heart glad, or like the people on the water throughout the day how to do?
I like to see , went to buy a home with the old antique shops, very old carved wooden doors, which a lot of old things arranged one by one, with traces of the years.
corner of a chair, can not tell what's, dark red, very simple. husband enjoy bend, suddenly shouted whispered me know. I do not understand why her husband was still indicative, only to find even hold his pants up.
people in their twenties, and also regardless of time to this nature, regardless of where BQ, really beast!
I'm the chair and his pants glances back and forth between a sweeping, fun, said: the chair. people feel a bit unreal. more like writing than from realistic.
I said: said: months. the streets everywhere, a group of three to five people, there are many couples, fingers or arms around the waist handshake and whispered laughing. only I was lonely.
consciously boring, then go home. readily in paper wrote: When sitting in the window, you should knock on the door rang, opened it, turned out to be her husband back with me from the festival field.
Unfortunately this is reality, not only did not knock on the door sounded, her husband even the phone did not make a come back.
an idiot!
have a very able to talk to college students, a total appreciation of queer, questions, phase analysis, was cited as his first friend I have. There's a read Murakami novel . I am glad after hearing, to be praised like proud.
knew he was the only person between me and my husband. very grateful to him, as telling him, although he could not understand, but still show tolerance and support of the vast.
After graduation he went to Shenyang, Chinese Academy of Sciences of the graduate school of metal, sometimes in online chat, he will ask, concerns.
In school, relatively simple, two people close to these, people just think we are good friends. out of the society, people complex, to be always taken into account. public place can not close a move, never go to work each other place to meet colleagues in the street, said that university students, carefully avoiding the secular vision.
wrote a very traditional, well-being of the children as a lifelong career.
been afraid of them that because her husband's father, my mother has high blood pressure, can not be angry, not anxious.
drives girlfriend was at home , looking for every possible excuse to shirk.
future, what will happen? No one knows. but because this person around, so have the courage to continue, uneasy with, happy with.
Fu Sheng Liu Ji 【V】
for the first time My husband is in close contact with the spring of the millennium.
large about half of the semester, it was birthday. eight, moving the two cases of beer. turn off the lights, lit candles, drink and chat. three in the morning, everyone drunk , and each went to bed.
relied tipsy feeling, climbing into her husband's bed nets, hand gently on his shoulder, feeling of comfort came from the men's skin.
slept soundly that night.
Since then, her husband started avoiding me.
fooling around on weekdays, cuddly, he can use the name of the students. If that further forward, but who did not dare. understand Cross out this step if we're not used to the us, no return.
relationship between the two men while parked in an awkward state of stalemate. But that kind of a strange feeling came raging fiercely, almost impossible to resist. hearts worth of longing desperately to refuse, I try to stay away from him. early out of a nap in the classroom, only ten minutes before lights out into the dorm, make new friends, laugh and shout, had intended to rent out their lives , but also because of the strike rules of the school had to do.
a few months, all weary mind.
was at that time, I know first girlfriend.
her fellow different classes and I have Many classes are combined in the class, the opportunity to meet many. very beautiful, tall, big eyes, slightly dark.
deliberately with the students bet I can ask her.
so in a physics class, to her transfer a note. casual working is: Are you willing to go to the movies tonight.
gave her four options: A, very willing. B, can be. C, nothing to do anyway. D, do not want to go. She chose A.

at six and a half, a small soccer field next to catch the seven o'clock movie.
very contradictory feelings, both about the girls want to make her husband jealous of the move, and hope his attention to this transfer, return to normal life.
forget, forget everything.
forget how the mood that day, forget what color she was wearing the clothes, but also forgot film plot.
just remember sitting in the dark, minute by minute have become exceptionally tough, the urge to escape the sake of restraint, the separation of mind and talk to her.
back to the dormitory, her husband was sweeping the floor, to see me in , asked me: Two people went to the main campus and other school buildings destroyed in an instant million lights together. will be the next self-study, the pool of stealing two pieces to the half lotus, his head upside down.
sit together in class, I Liaoning physical books into Mandarin, so she read out in Cantonese. classmate, said: There are half a month, close to the end of first year university.
turn off the lights, give her a call, as usual meaningless chatter.
said was
silent dorm, approaching one o'clock, the husband suddenly got up, lit a cigarette sitting below.
looked at him through the back of mosquito nets and a clear one off the cigarette, then the silent tears interest-free to flow out, not burst, just a choke a choke, both aggrieved and sad.
next day, and she parted.
sophomore, no longer with the school, see greatly reduces the chances, and occasionally meet in the cafeteria, talk a few words, my heart the phrase Is this true, and can not help but laugh at myself foolishly sentimental.
Shiyou soon to see her graduate, has a job in Guangdong, helped her set up a stall selling old things, packing shipping, as if to make up for like.
My husband said that we still hung over, I glanced at him, thinking is not all because of you.
and, three years after the start jealous, time dragged on too long, I've been too do not want to wait.
Floating Life Six Six】 【
suddenly recalled yesterday, , as if unlimited stories inside.
it I'm just not dead!
admitted to second year, rookie turned into fields and then, for the school, as the rules can be more or less nothing. himself on the outside rented a small room, a bed, a desk, a computer, up to three months had no dormitory and did not want to see him.
day and night is the time to develop the habit reversal, and the hearts of sorrow thoughts no place to vent, often bare until dawn, listening to the rain dripping outside the house to play in the eaves, thinking about their own situation how could such a falling today.
more, far more to see. more want to see , the more afraid.
Changsha, winter is the wet and cold, not rain clouds in the sky is.
skipping, like A guilty sneak dormitory as a person sitting in the empty dorm daze I do not know what to do.
someone knocked on the door, turned out to be him, because this unexpected encounter, the two are Yizheng.
venture to come behind him, living his ring back, his face buried on his back, said: br> after six months, a variety of disease after another, insomnia, cold, allergies, stomach pains, refused to go to the hospital.
the number of starts to miss him less, most of the time is lingering with a variety of disease his sick bed, groggy. a cold month, did not improve, just a little, they began to allergies, joint and several stomach, and the pain can not sleep at night sitting up and silly, a lot a lot Chiqu pain tablets, a hypnotic effect.
weight plummeted, one people to dissolve the height, less than sixty kilograms.
nearly self-abusive behavior abandon myself terrified students, seven turns care, look at me to take medicine, I went to the hospital hostage.
I无可无不可.
once woke up, her husband sitting on the bed, his face clouds, the two relatively silent.
he asked: no one knows the house. metamorphosis. my body tingling, cold hands and feet, I abnormal? my metamorphosis is your strokes. pick up the bed, throw things, not say, this man is his love, and with no particular person, even if the point was referred to today is that on your own, and can blame?
later her husband said, that one day I can face the four words to describe: despair.
hear the door slamming open the door, I did not open my eyes. just think, if you can, I do not want to like you. to find a girl, walking hand in hand openly in front of others. But No one gave me the opportunity, for the first time like a person to like you.
If I had known, I would not come to Changsha, you will not let myself meet.
If, eleven million If.
moved back to the dormitory, seriously my college life, the husband began to learn as the students do not know the students mm, do not speak, but not him. do not want a Xinxuan in the air, force yourself to pull off .
lying about after the main lights will be entertainment, side, and the students said, and he is thinking that he is doing. sometimes get up to the water room, through her husband's quarters, will support ears, and occasionally her husband's voice from inside, not hear say his heart is happy.
will also talk with the students pretending to casually mention her husband, heard his name from someone else's lips, there is a hidden happiness.
even a few days ago to ask her husband why do want to open, and willing to be with me.
he only said: blink. . > My husband walked behind me, hand on my shoulder hh
so many accidents have a new start.
was almost desperate grasp every moment with him, since he still has to memories can be worthy of the capital. was not Shexiang through life, fight the Cold War, warm, caring, no matter what happens, as long as two people have the determination to work together, to dare to go.
often think of Eileen Chang's words, with very appropriate to us.
He is a man, however, I was a selfish man, perhaps, in this world, still not our place for such people.
, however, a place which can accommodate the total of the two ordinary man.
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